Vacation is overwhelming?

I’m currently trying to plan a trip to Europe in the fall and Jesus f*%#^@&$ Christ this is a full time job! Now I understand the need for travel agents, I will admit up until now I thought they were useless professions. Every time I pick up a travel book or look online I find 20 million more things I want to do and see. If I could I would do them all but I would need to be a very rich person with a lot of time on my hands to do that. So I’m currently trying to hone in my crazy desire to do it all and come up with a realistic plan. Funny thing is I will most likely not follow the plan but I feel I need to have one. I suppose it’s a “just in case” precaution at least that’s what I’m going to tell myself.

So back to the topic at hand, what should I do while gallivanting around England, Ireland, and Scotland? It’s times like this when I really see just how ridiculous I am at making decisions. I want to do everything and at the same time I don’t care what I do as long as its fun, which I know it will be. This is really not a helpful criteria but I’m trying to make it work. Is anyone else this scatterbrained when it comes to planning vacation trips? So I am beginning to enlist so friends who have traveled to these parts of the world for help. I figure they know me, they’ll know what I like to do so it will be a win win situation. Well sort of win win, for me it will be a win win, I don’t really know what anyone else will get out of it. Perhaps I’ll make them some cupcakes for their help. I like that idea! J



Ahhh it’s raining, getting me ready for the English weather, I can’t Wait!!!

Feeling Stuck

Lately I've been forced to realize just how different I am from my family. Perhaps this is why I don't get along with them. I know every one's families drive them nuts every now and then but mine have been driving me nuts for as long as I can remember. Growing up I never dreamed of getting married or having kids, I spent all my time dreaming of being far far away. Is it so wrong to want to be free from the very people who gave you life and helped you grow into the person you are? I know I wouldn't be where I am without them but I'm beginning to wonder if I would be better off without them constantly having an opinion of my life. All I've ever done is be what they want, do what they say, and when I finally stopped I became unhappy because of their disapproval of me. Weird because I don't care what they think, I just really hate having to listen to them bicker about everything I do. Nothing is ever quite good enough. It's tiring to try and always please these people.

Yes I love my family but I'm sick of trying to please them and falling short. I'm striving towards things I don't want in life and the worst part is I don't really know what I want. I've been trying to be someone I'm clearly not for to long I don't know who I actually am. I want to go back to the days where things weren't so messed up, when I stood up for myself. Where did that girl go? I miss her.

Will I ever get away from here? I'd like to think that one day I will but as another year passes and I get older I'm beginning to feel like I'm always going to be in this place. My only hope is that one day I'll make the jump and get the hell out of this place, it's time for some adventure in my life. I'm ready for it.

Lost Boys or Zombieland?

Sitting on my bed trying to decide which movie to watch, Lost Boys or Zombieland. I suppose it all comes down to which sort of monster I feel like watching, vampires or Zombies. Yes this is a very important life decision I'm attempting to make right now. Although looking at my tv I need to clean the screen before I decide what to pop in, that this is filthy!!! Why is it so dusty here? I swear I just wiped that thing off and it's built up again. Blah swiffer sweeper here I come!

20 minutes later - sorry I got distracted and forgot about my big decision at hand. Anyhoo the winner is........Lost Boys! I'm totally digging the fashion and crazy hair this movie offers to its viewers. Takes me back, lol!